Stuff and Thangs

I have not written since February… before the world went crazy!

So, I haven’t stopped working, as I am an Essential Worker. It’s me and one co worker in the office most days…and on Tuesdays, I’m completely by myself. It kinda sucks. Oh, well, by myself except for the ghost lady that lives in my office. I’m 100% sure of her existence. I see her walk by the window of my office, and I always think it’s my coworker who wears all black but then, said coworker never appears…I’m not freaked out by her presence, in fact I’ve started saying hi to her and I am sure it’s a female. This building is oldAF, and who knows what might have happened here in the past…but I’m positive of her existence…lol

This covid shit sucks…I miss my friends and family and getting together for dinner and shit like that. However, J and I did accomplish getting the kitchen remodel half done…well, we’re not completely done with the one half yet, but it’s awesome, we just have finishing touches. The second half will cost a lot more so it’s a little bit off still just like the bathroom. All the floors downstairs have been replaced as well, except for the tiny bedroom and the laundry room, but they will be soon.

I do have big big news!

Yup, I am pregnant. I know we had decided to adopt, but then in February I changed my mind about that…not that adoption isn’t great, but I really just wanted to experience this. The whole thing. So I had my IUD taken out, and we started trying again, but I decided not to stop my medications for migraines and bipolar until I actually got pregnant…and I conceived at the end of May. I’m 12 weeks along tomorrow, and Baby Britton is due February 18th 2021. We are very excited.

And let me tell you, I got what I wanted…I am experiencing it ALL! Severe morning sickness that lasts all day long. I’m exhausted, so exhausted that I don’t even feel like a functioning human most days…lol My boobs HURT like OMG, I can’t take it and they’ve gotten huge, and will only get bigger! I am bloated and full of gas all day, every day. I have baby brain which means I am extremely forgetful. My hormones are raging, I have zero tolerance for bullshit… J and I got into an argument the other day and I threw a pile of blankets at his head. LMFAO. It’s bad. #iaskedforthis

This little glo-worm(that’s what the baby looks like right now to me, is a glo-worm…lol) will only allow me to listen to a few artists as far as music goes: Hozier, Tom Petty, Metallica, Gary Allan and Luke Bryan. I can’t tolerate Pearl Jam right now… or Pink…it’s like I’m in some sort of Twilight Zone….UGH! I miss PJ! I hope that changes soon because I really need Eddie’s voice in my ears! For weeks though, it was only Hozier and Tom Petty…the rest are new to the list this week! The little glo-worm will also not allow me to drink coffee right now, which is pure torture. I miss my coffee desperately, but right now it makes me more nauseous than anything! I am really hoping that the morning sickness passes with the first trimester, which is soon, and that I don’t have it my entire pregnancy.

I wish Chyann would talk to us. She still isn’t, but is talking to my mom. I figure she must know by now that I’m pregnant, but who knows. I actually sent her a message on IG but I don’t think she ever looked at it. I just imagine she had to have found out from either my mom or J’s family by now.

UGH I took a sip of water and I’m nauseous again. It’s rough. I’m beyond ready to go home!

Also, mine and J’s 10th wedding anniversary is Friday! 11 years together and 10 married. And I love more every day…even when my hormones are making me throw blankets at his head. lol