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Update on me…

Medusa

Yes, it’s real. I got the Medusa Piercing, inspired by Bailey Sarian. I’ve had it for 2 weeks as of tomorrow… Love it… Obsessed! Lol This was a method of self-care for me.

So I have been going through a lot… PPD and PPA and a resurgence of my bipolar cycling. Trying to get that under control as well as my migraines. I have a migraine today… Think it’s menstrual… Got my period back… Lol can’t say I missed it while I was pregnant.

Before the Medusa, but a makeup lewk I loved.
Was feeling the grunge that day.

One way I do self-care is makeup… And this is why I love Bailey Sarian so much, she inspires me… I also do my nails. I paint them myself weekly. I’m trying to grow them back now.

I tried to recreate Bailey’s look, but didn’t have the right green, I still liked it though. I really want to get that green!
This week’s mani… I need new black polish… it’s getting thick. Lol
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Odds and Ends…

It’s been a hell of a couple days here…my sweet little bubby boy is very sick, he’s got it coming out both ends and won’t eat. I’m really worried but we went to the vet and they gave us meds for a bacterial upset in his GI, he should have had multiple types of bacteria and he only had 1…I love my little old man puppy…if you’re reading this please send him some positive vibes!

What else? Hmm, J finishes school this week…he walked in May, but he’ll officially be done after this week. YAY!!! So excited about that! He’s looking for a job in his new field…which is still technically the same field, just not as a driver anymore…he’ll be in logistics still. I’m so proud of him!!!

We are beginning to think more about adoption. In case I can’t get pregnant, we’re not done trying yet, but the options have to be explored.

We are thinking of possibly moving…so with the job search he’s looking in other places besides Salem, even besides Oregon. We want a fresh start. So we’ll see where things go…

I’m still working in Corvallis, I don’t hate the job, but I don’t love it the way I did FSA…loved what I did there I mean. But I hate the commute, it’s torture. But my boss and other coworkers are great, so that’s great too. And my boss is so great about when I have migraines and like Friday when I couldn’t go to work because of Autzen. It’s so wonderful to have understanding. Thursday actually marked 7 months I’ve been there and today marked 1 year since I left FSA.

Also I’ve been waiting a long time for Jane The Virgin’s final season, and it’s here on Netflix now I’m so excited! lol

I’m going to start painting and doing art again. I need the outlet. So stressed out lately between the failure to procreate and the not sleeping because I can’t take my medicine, and the depression and anxiety because I can’t take my bipolar stuff and the migraines…I’m so exhausted, but I need an outlet of some kind…

This summer needs to die a fast but PAINFUL death…I HATE summer with a passion. October can’t get here fast enough. ❤ For many reasons, the weather, my birthday month…and Negan! haha

Alright I think that’s it for now.

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I fucking miss Rick Grimes!

I am rewatching TWD since I have to wait until October for new ones…so I decided to start back at the beginning…I know it’s legit only been half a season, but OMG I MISS RICK GRIMES!!! Andy, why did you have to leave us??? I’m almost to the end of season 3 already…I may have time to watch it twice by October. LMAO, I am a pro at binge watching.

Some friends and I started a *Girl Gang*, we’re gonna get T-shirts and patches. It’s all about Women supporting women, empowering each other and having each other’s backs! We’re called Femme AF.

I’m not gonna get super political, but I am gonna say I’m sick of this shit, this attack on women’s rights, our right to choose what we do with our own bodies, our right to be our own person…they’re looking to strip all that away, that’s why we have to have each other’s backs…we have to stand up for ourselves and each other, and not let them win! RISE UP AND RESIST! THE FUTURE IS FEMALE!

I’m home sick today and still not feeling so well, so that’s it for today. ❤

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checking in…

RE: Nerve block

I had one migraine that I woke up with this past Saturday…but it was manageable and I got rid of it. My period did arrive, Sunday night, and so far, no major migraines from it.

I have however been having insane cramps…feels like someone is trying to rip my uterus out with a red hot poker…but yeah sure I love being female! *angry face* I haven’t had cramps like these since i was a teenager… My emotions are also all over the damn place, I’m swinging from wanting to punch someone in the throat to trying not to cry.

My lunch break today was spent handling personal bullshit, I had to cancel Comcast internet because they fucking suck ass! And I got a letter from a guy in Kentucky repping my medical insurance saying that I would have to pay them back for any injuries from my car accident (last May) that they had paid benefits on…but they didn’t pay on anything progressive did…so what happened is the computer connected my broken toe(thanks to my dogs) to the accident and they needed to make sure that they were not connected because I did go to urgent care and the foot doctor about my toe. However, that happened on like May 22nd(or so) and the accident was May 30th so that should have been fucking obvious but apparently it wasn’t. So I had to resolve that as well. Fucking morons if you ask me…I mean there was at least a week between the toe and car accident.

I also got my nails did on Sunday…LOOOOOVE them!!! Hubby and I made a deal that I could get my nails did once I lost 10 lbs…guess who is down 11 as of last Saturday!?

The color of the dipping powder is called Wizard Fantasy. ❤ And We love Negan!

Who else is relieved there was no major life or death cliff hangers on the TWD Season 9 finale??? *raises hand*

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Ok, so I am a week and a half late with this post, but I was exhausted, and had to finish out my last 2 weeks at the job I was at…yup, I got a new job and that’s a whole other topc, I start it tomorrow…but this post is all about the trip to Seattle to see my saving grace, Pearl Jam!!!

So Here is how this is going to go down…I’m going to write about the whole trip and then I will post all the pictures…well not all of them because I took way too many at MoPop, but I have gathered my favorites from there. So the first thing you should know, that for a fan like me, not just of Pearl Jam, but grunge in general…traveling to Seattle is like visiting the motherland…of grunge, it’s a sacred experience!

 

So we arrived in Seattle at 10am and went and ate some food and then caught a bus over to Easy Street Records, I honestly just wanted to see the Mother Love Bone Mural and get pics, but not only that I looked up and there were two of my FB PJ friends, Art and Stephanie, so I got to meet them and talk for a couple minutes and get a pic and Art gave me a copy of the newest “mixtape” CD they had made, they do that make mixes of PJ stuff and give them out. Then we went inside Easy Street and OMG, it’s amazing!!! So much memorabilia for not just PJ but all of them!!! I took a lot of pics and got a couple souvenirs. Then I connected on FB with my friend Denise and we both headed from our locations down to Pike Place Market to meet up! I got to see the gumwall and added my own gum, it was sooo cool! Such a bizarre thing, but at the same time this amazing piece of living art because it’s always constantly changing. It was awesome to meet her and her awesome family! Her hubby is from New Zealand and her song is a giant…lol Then hubby and I went shopping at the market and got some cool stuff. It was really hot though and the market is mostly outside and they have like no where to sit so we decided to go to the hotel, and at our hotel they had a Starbucks so we sat there til check-in time and charged our phones and drank iced tea…lol Also met a sweet family of ladies, a mom and her two teen daughters who had flown in from Texas for the show and they were flying back out immediately after. It was a graduation gift to the older daughter. We chatted a lot because I’m from Texas and we all love PJ. Then we finally got to check-in and we went up and settled into the hotel, and then went downstairs to eat at Ruth’s Chris as our anniversary dinner, as our wedding anniversary was the night before. Then we ran back up to the hotel room for our tickets and headed to Safeco. It was insane trying to get in…sooooo unorganized and things labeled wrong. I even had to throw my purse away because you can’t take anything bigger than a wristlet into the venue…I had looked up the rules for Safeco, having no idea that PJ set their own rules. Luckily it was an old purse and I didn’t care so much, so everything important went into Jason’s cargo pockets and my little make up bag and that was it…lol So the guy who bought our 3rd ticket was actually from Australia and he was ADORABLE! The show started 1 hour late, and really I don’t know how it goes at most of them because this is my only experience but I think it was because of how disorganized it was to get through the gates.

All of a sudden the regular music pumping over the PA system shut off and the music for Aye Davanita started and then the stage lights came on and we could see the guys taking their places. They opened with Long Road but then they played RELEASE! I think I died a little when they started that one…I died a little several times. They played everything I could have asked for except Daughter. I got Corduroy(my fave song since I was 15), I got Black…extended version(We Belong together)…I got Lightning Bolt, I got Neil Young covers, I just got it all. Release, while not my fave song, is a very important one to me and I was moved nearly to tears by it. I would have cried had they played Daughter. It is one thing to listen to their albums, you feel it…but to be there in that stadium and feel Mike and Stone’s guitar, Jeff’s bass, Matt’s drums, Booms Keys and especially Eddie’s voice physically reverberate through your body, it’s a sacred and other worldly experience. This was the most amazing experience of my life to date…and you can bet your ass I will see them again!!! Pearl Jam fever is a very real thing!!!

On Thursday we went and had brunch with my bff Taylor, and then went to MoPop and went through essentially every exhibit. And then went to the space needle, Jason had to bribe me with food to get me to go up in the needle though. And then we got up there and they have the new lower deck glad floor, and I stood on it and took a pic…yeah me the one who was terrified, but Jason, the one who wanted to go up, would not step foot on the glass floor…BOOM! I got a t-shirt and a badass seattle made float out of the deal for being so brave! lol

Here are the pictures…

 

 

 

 

 

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This last picture is a poster Jason bought for me at Pike Place Market. I had to have it, my boys played with Metallica, on my hubby’s 11th birthday in my hometown of Houston at the ASTRODOME!!! HELLS YEAH!!! lol

Safeco night 2, they did play Daughter, and my friend Denice who I met at Pike Place, she went live on Facebook just for me so I could hear it, I was just going to bed, I cried watching the live feed of that song. ❤