Yes, it’s real. I got the Medusa Piercing, inspired by Bailey Sarian. I’ve had it for 2 weeks as of tomorrow… Love it… Obsessed! Lol This was a method of self-care for me.
So I have been going through a lot… PPD and PPA and a resurgence of my bipolar cycling. Trying to get that under control as well as my migraines. I have a migraine today… Think it’s menstrual… Got my period back… Lol can’t say I missed it while I was pregnant.
Before the Medusa, but a makeup lewk I loved. Was feeling the grunge that day.
One way I do self-care is makeup… And this is why I love Bailey Sarian so much, she inspires me… I also do my nails. I paint them myself weekly. I’m trying to grow them back now.
I tried to recreate Bailey’s look, but didn’t have the right green, I still liked it though. I really want to get that green!This week’s mani… I need new black polish… it’s getting thick. Lol
I have not written since February… before the world went crazy!
So, I haven’t stopped working, as I am an Essential Worker. It’s me and one co worker in the office most days…and on Tuesdays, I’m completely by myself. It kinda sucks. Oh, well, by myself except for the ghost lady that lives in my office. I’m 100% sure of her existence. I see her walk by the window of my office, and I always think it’s my coworker who wears all black but then, said coworker never appears…I’m not freaked out by her presence, in fact I’ve started saying hi to her and I am sure it’s a female. This building is oldAF, and who knows what might have happened here in the past…but I’m positive of her existence…lol
This covid shit sucks…I miss my friends and family and getting together for dinner and shit like that. However, J and I did accomplish getting the kitchen remodel half done…well, we’re not completely done with the one half yet, but it’s awesome, we just have finishing touches. The second half will cost a lot more so it’s a little bit off still just like the bathroom. All the floors downstairs have been replaced as well, except for the tiny bedroom and the laundry room, but they will be soon.
I do have big big news!
My eggo is preggo…
Yup, I am pregnant. I know we had decided to adopt, but then in February I changed my mind about that…not that adoption isn’t great, but I really just wanted to experience this. The whole thing. So I had my IUD taken out, and we started trying again, but I decided not to stop my medications for migraines and bipolar until I actually got pregnant…and I conceived at the end of May. I’m 12 weeks along tomorrow, and Baby Britton is due February 18th 2021. We are very excited.
And let me tell you, I got what I wanted…I am experiencing it ALL! Severe morning sickness that lasts all day long. I’m exhausted, so exhausted that I don’t even feel like a functioning human most days…lol My boobs HURT like OMG, I can’t take it and they’ve gotten huge, and will only get bigger! I am bloated and full of gas all day, every day. I have baby brain which means I am extremely forgetful. My hormones are raging, I have zero tolerance for bullshit… J and I got into an argument the other day and I threw a pile of blankets at his head. LMFAO. It’s bad. #iaskedforthis
This little glo-worm(that’s what the baby looks like right now to me, is a glo-worm…lol) will only allow me to listen to a few artists as far as music goes: Hozier, Tom Petty, Metallica, Gary Allan and Luke Bryan. I can’t tolerate Pearl Jam right now… or Pink…it’s like I’m in some sort of Twilight Zone….UGH! I miss PJ! I hope that changes soon because I really need Eddie’s voice in my ears! For weeks though, it was only Hozier and Tom Petty…the rest are new to the list this week! The little glo-worm will also not allow me to drink coffee right now, which is pure torture. I miss my coffee desperately, but right now it makes me more nauseous than anything! I am really hoping that the morning sickness passes with the first trimester, which is soon, and that I don’t have it my entire pregnancy.
I wish Chyann would talk to us. She still isn’t, but is talking to my mom. I figure she must know by now that I’m pregnant, but who knows. I actually sent her a message on IG but I don’t think she ever looked at it. I just imagine she had to have found out from either my mom or J’s family by now.
UGH I took a sip of water and I’m nauseous again. It’s rough. I’m beyond ready to go home!
Also, mine and J’s 10th wedding anniversary is Friday! 11 years together and 10 married. And I love more every day…even when my hormones are making me throw blankets at his head. lol
My “best” friend ghosted and blocked me with no explanation. Didn’t bother to try and talk to me if I had done something to upset her. Apparently she lacks common decency. So I have blocked her back and I am done. No going back this time because, honestly, it’s not the first time she’s done something of this nature. It’s happened multiple times over the course of our 22 year friendship. Just over it!
In other news, I found my first love on IG, a while back.so I was like hmmm what’s he up to now, because he was in school for music and I was like that’s actually pretty cool because he always loved music. Well upon my latest snoop I discovered he is a Trump supporter, and I am not kidding in the slightest when I say I had a physical reaction. I gagged and threw up in my mouth a little bit.
Also, you know, a lot of time has passed since he did what he did to me. But, I’ll be damned if hearing the song “Break Down Here” by Julie Roberts, which was my break up anthem for him, doesn’t still give me goosebumps.
I’m essentially recovered from my surgery. Muscles are still a bit tight, but getting better all the time. I started wearing lip color… Which I never do except for my make up for Halloween if it’s required. And I’m kind of obsessed! I have a red, a peach and three shades of pink. Also, I shaved my head again… But now I am really going to try and grow it! 😫😂
So I’m an absolute dork! But I am so stoked because for the first time ever, I was successful at winged eye liner! *Gasp* lol I watched this video Tarte posted to IG and watched how they did the wings and just mimicked what I saw and they look sharp! I’m seriously thrilled! Haha
Also I came to the conclusion that I don’t hate this job. It’s hard, it’s challenging, but I’ve been here 7 months now and I’m getting to see these clients change for the better and succeed and it feels good to be a part of that. Though, it doesn’t come without some heartbreak along the way too. But it’s awesome to see their success!
I am also embracing my hipster style, much to my hubby’s dismay…lol but he loves me anyway. P.S. I can’t wait for beanie weather to come and stay! I miss the cool hair and clouds and rain!!! Yesterday was blissful for me! But alas, the yellow demon is back in the sky today… ðŸ˜
I had a horrid migraine since last Friday’s ordeal with the dog, who by the way will live another day! Lol and it is finally gone and today I feel great…hoping not to curse myself by saying that!
Ok, But First Coffee! 